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Perfect	By : Shinji606 Category: DC Verse Cartoons - Teen Titans > Slash - Male/Male > Beast Boy/Robin Views: 3376 -:- Recommendations : 0 -:- Currently Reading : 0
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PERFECT

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Chapter Eight
Perfect Vs. Imperfect

Robin lay in his bed awake. He had spent weeks avoiding his girlfriend Starfire and seeing his secret lover Beast Boy. Robin smiled at the thought of his Kitten Beast Boy, and then frowned at the thought of his girlfriend.

“Why do things have to be complicated? Why couldn’t I just love her, or realize I was in love with my Kitten earlier” Robin said in his head. “On second thought lets just go with why couldn’t I figure out I loved Gar earlier.” Robin said out loud, because Robin couldn’t imagine loving anyone else. What was so wrong with Starfire, she was just fine when they were friends. She was the perfect best friend, and yet that’s what made her undesirable as a girlfriend.

“My Kitten on the other hand is imperfect and I love every imperfect thing he does.” Robin said a smile on his face. Robin got up from his bed and left his room on a mission. Robin stopped in front of his lover’s door and punched in his key code to unlock it. Robin snuck into Beast Boy’s now clean room; Robin had forced him to clean it. Robin approached the bed that his lover sleep in careful not to wake the younger boy. All Robin wanted to do was watch him sleep. Watching the younger boy sleep had become a hobby Robin found himself doing a lot lately. Never waking the boy up just watching the person he loved most sleep silently curled up with Robin’s robe from the island. Robin kept Beast Boys clean robe in his closet at the end, but kept the one covered in his lover’s blood under his mattress. Late at night when the world was asleep he would often pull it out and hug it while he cried thinking of the pain the younger boy felt. Robin often wondered if his little Kitten felt pain now, because the person he loved was with another. Robin felt pain because he was with another. There had been so many times when he just wanted to hold or kiss the younger boy, but didn’t because everyone was there. Often times Robin would excuse himself when the need to be with the younger boy became too much for him to handle; then he would go up to his room pull the blood covered robe from it’s hiding spot and cry into it. Beast Boy really was a drug. He was addicting and not just in sex, but in everything he did. Robin just had to be around the younger boy to function. The older teen really wondered why nobody noticed when he followed Beast Boy around like a lost puppy. Sure they left on the mission to become closer friends.
And friends do more together when they are closer, but there is a line that you don’t cross with your friends. Robin had crossed that line with Beast Boy many times not only in front of his own team but Titans East as well. It was always little stuff like holding on to his hand a little to long, or calling him a cute little kitten while pulling him in for a bone crushing hug. And every time Robin crossed that line he went further and further to the point of no return.

“Robin I love you” Beast Boy said still asleep in his bed. The words pulled the older titan out of his world of thoughts. Beast Boy always made Robin’s millions of thoughts make since. This was no difference. The solution and answer to why it was getting harder to resist the young green boy in front of his friends. The answer was right there probably longer then they realized they liked each other more then two friends should. And Beast Boy just subconsciously answered it yet again making Robin’s world make perfect sense. They were in love. That’s right Richard John Grayson and Garfield Mark Logan were madly and deeply in love.

Robin quickly made a discovery that made him mad at himself. Beast Boy had told Robin he loved him. In fact it was Beast Boy who confessed his feelings to Robin that morning in the tent where their relationship began. Robin knew for a fact that he figured out he was in love with Beast Boy way before the young titan even knew he liked Robin. So why was Beast Boy the first to say the words I love you. Robin looked down at the sleeping boy who had taken Robin’s hand in his while he slept. Robin grew disgusted with him self.

“I only tell you I love you while you sleep. You don’t know I love you do you?” Robin asked the sleeping boy. Beast Boy moved in his sleep his left hand fell over Robin’s left hand combining the wings of the butterfly on their rings. Robin smiled at the gesture then kissed the young changeling on the head. The older teen untangled their hands and took his leave.

“I love you so god damn much Gar, and one day I tell you when your not asleep. In till then please be patient with me, because I am an idiot.” Robin told the sleeping younger teen before he left completely. Robin walked in silent tears back to his room.

Raven watched Robin sneak back to his room tears streaming down his face for the fourth time this week. Raven sighed as the boy’s couldn’t hide this strong of feeling’s from her. It was way to strong not to pick up, and it broke her heart knowing how much pain both boy’s were in. It would have been so much easier if Robin just told Star the truth. The alien may like Robin but it was nowhere near the love the two boys felt for each other. It had become a simple fact to Raven that Robin and Beast Boy needed each other to survive. Their love was that strong and that deep and they didn’t even realize it. Both were to blame for this misunderstanding. Robin needed to get over his hero ego and grow the balls to dump Star, and tell her the truth about his feelings for the green changeling. Robin also needed to tell Beast Boy how much he really loved him before it’s was too late. Raven at least hoped he did the later if not the first before something horrible happened. Raven had a really bad feeling something bad was going to happen, and that’s where Beast Boy’s fault comes in. Beast Boy needed to tell Robin how much it really hurt to be the other lover. Beast Boy’s heart broke each night when he saw Robin cuddling with Star, but broke even more so when he left Robin’s room alone and feeling used. Beast Boy’s feelings are what made her nervous. Beast Boy would go to his room hurt and sometimes wish to die if he couldn’t have Robin all to himself. Nine times out of ten the young teen would cry him self to sleep.

“I have to do something before something horrible happens.” Raven said as she walked to her bed. “I need to confront them both. Raven smiled at the thought of them realizing they weren’t that secret of lovers. At least not to Raven, but the others thought it was a big brother little brother relationship. Raven laughed to her self thinking of the others naïve thoughts.

“Siblings don’t fuck like rabbits” Raven said bluntly to her self, and then blushed at the thought of a flushed Beast Boy withering in pleasure under Robin. “Beast Boy would defiantly be the feminine one out of the two” she said in her head. With that last mentally scaring image Raven closed her eye’s and drifted to sleep.

Beast boy awoke with a strange instinct telling him to stay far away from Raven. He didn’t know if she was mad at him or what, but he could tell as soon as he saw her that she had something to say to him, and he wasn’t going to like the conversation. Any time Beast Boy found himself alone with the girl he would get the hell out of there as fast as he could. This went on in till about 6:00 pm when Raven got sick of the games.

“Beast Boy, might I have a word with you alone please?” Raven asked in front of everyone to ensure the conversation. He couldn’t refuse when the entire tower saw the exchange.

“Uh oh, would you do this time BB?” Cy joked with the younger titan ruffling his green hair. This gesture earned his hand a slap form a jealous Robin. Everyone just stopped and starred. Robin blushed and apologized saying something about wanting to pick a fight with Cy. Raven raised her brow to the pathetic excuse, and then grabbed Beast Boy’s hand, and dragged him away.

“Raven I am sorry for what ever I did to make you angry with me.” Beast Boy said sure he did something stupid that he would pay for in a minute. Raven looked at her friend a little sadly.

“Does he really think that little of himself that he would assume he did something to piss me off?” Raven asked herself. Raven looked deeply into Beast Boy’s emerald eyes and saw self doubt and pain. Raven clenched her chest because the young boy hurt so much it hurt her. The pale girl wondered how on earth she hadn’t sensed it before.

“I am not mad at you I just want to talk.” Raven said in a gentle voice afraid she might scare the boy way. Beast Boy nodded to the older girl, and followed her in to a private room. Raven used her powers to make sure any unwanted listeners such as the ever teasing Cyborg or Beast Boy’s obviously jealous secret lover couldn’t hear. Raven turned and looked her green companion in the eyes.

“First off, I would like you to know that everything we talk about in herer will be kept a complete secret in less you want me to talk to Robin for you. Second of all is everything ok with you personally Gar. You have been worrying me lately?” Raven said in completely confidence. Beast Boy starred at her long and hard choosing his word correctly.

“Nothing is wrong but thanks for the concern, but uhh… Why do you think I would need you to talk to Robin?” Beast Boy asked curiosity thick in his voice. Raven eyed her companion trying to decide if he was mentally ready for this conversation. In the end she decided that it was now or never she took a big breath and readied her self for anything the young teen might do.

“Gar, I am not as naïve as the rest of the house. I can sense and pick up all the signals. I know you’re in love with Robin, and I know about the two of you and your affair.” Beast Boy went as pale as a green skinned boy could go. Beast Boy’s heart picked up pace and his breath started to quicken. Tears quickly fell down the boy’s face as his legs went out on him and he tumbled to the floor. Beast boy suddenly got sick and lost his dinner all over the floor. Raven sighed as she lowered her self next to the trembling boy. She had never seen Beast Boy so messed up.

“You must think I am low and disgusting” The changeling whispered in between sobs. “You hate me now don’t you Raven? It’s ok if you do I know I am a screw up, and this must be the icing on the cake.” Beast Boy brought him self up off the ground. “I know it’s low to have an affair with one of your friends, and I know it not fair to Star, but I love Robin because he never looks down on me and says he needs me. He didn’t even find me disgusting when he caught me cutting my self.’’ Beast boy choked on a sob as he continued in a low whisper.” The only thing Robin has done is use me as his play toy, but a least he needs me. I would rather he use me then not even notice my existence.” Robin said the last part more to himself then Raven, but she heard it all the same. Beast Boy finally looked up in the face of the older girl. Tears sliding down her face as she looked directly at her younger friend in fear for his life.

“Beast Boy you cut your self” she asked with out thinking.

Beast Boy laughed a sad choked laugh “Another thing you can hate me for, because I am a disgusting freak, in love with the most perfect boy in the whole fucking world, and he will never love me…but I am ok with that as long as he notices me I am fine. So hate me all you want Raven.” Beast Boy turned and ran back through the living room desperate to get away from the older girl. Beast Boy tripped on a chair in the middle of the living room and landed in the arms of Starfire. Robin and Cy turned and looked at the two in the awkward embrace, as Raven walked in to try and clam the young boy before he hurt himself.

“Hehee, hello friend Beast Boy” Star sang clearly glad to see her young friend. Beast Boy chocked out another sob. Star suddenly cupped the younger boys face and brought his tear stained face up so she could get a good look. Robin moved uncomfortably while Cy laughed at the two neither noticing Beast Boy’s silent sobs. Star suddenly wrapped her arms around the younger boys frame.

“Its ok friend Beast Boy, don’t cry what ever is wrong?” She asked innocently. Raven gave Robin a death glare, pissed because of her younger friend’s state of mind, and Robin’s unwillingness to make all his pain go away. Beast Boy wrapped his arms around the alien girl needing any kind of comfort. Everyone starred in silence as Beast Boy sobbed. Slowly he began to gain composure he looked up at the girl who had been such a good friend.

“Why can’t I be a good friend like you Star? Why can’t I be you?” Beast Boy asked in a whisper so quite that if it wasn’t for the complete silence no one would have heard. Unlucky for the Green Titan everyone heard. Tears ran down Raven’s face as she mentally begged Robin to do something anything. Robin just starred at his young secret lover heart broken but to afraid to rescue him.

“Why would you want to be Star BB?” Cy asked wanting to help his young friend. Beast Boy looked a Cy as he laughed and choked out another sob. Beast Boy’s eyes slowly fell on Robin, tears slipped down his check.

“It’s a secret” Beast Boy said his eyes never leaving Robin. Beast Boy turned and began to run to his room needing to be alone, needing to be away from everything and away from Robin. After the young changeling left Raven turned to Robin and glared. Cy and Star looked at the death glare The masked boy was receiving slightly afraid for Robin’s life.

“I need to talk to you alone now!” Raven screamed at a now also fearing for his life Robin.

“Uhh…Ok” Robin said afraid to bring out her wrath. Raven took Robin to the same room she talked to Beast Boy in.

“Who got sick?” Robin asked temporarily forgetting Raven’s rage toward him right now.

“The boy you love!” she snapped at the idiot standing in front of her.

“You’re a god damn idiot.” Raven yelled forgetting all sane thought.

“I know” Robin said to the fuming girl in front of him. “If it makes anything better I love him.” Robin said as he played with the ring on his left hand. Raven looked at the ring with half a butterfly wing on top. She remembered the second day the two boys were back and she had caught sight to Beast Boys matching ring. This was the first she had seen of Robin’s now that his gloves were off. Raven could see he hadn’t token the ring off once. Secretly she sort of felt bad for screaming at him.

“He really is my whole life I know it doesn’t show, but with out him I am nothing.” Robin said to Raven.

“Then tell him. If you don’t have the ball’s to dump Star at least tell Beast Boy you love him. He needs to know he’s not just your toy. Telling him when he’s asleep won’t do the trick.” Raven told Robin “And you need to tell him before its too late.” Robin nodded his head. There was a long silence and then the alarm went off. Robin looked at Raven with a sad smile.

“I’ll tell him when we get back I promise.” Robin told his pale friend. Robin smiled at his friend again as he kissed the ring. Robin and Raven returned back to the living room to meet the other titans.

“Beast Boy said to go with out him” Cy said a little confused and sad. Robin sighed but turned to leave. It was just a bank robbery anyway and Beast Boy needed some time to think. “So why do I have a bad feeling about this” Robin said to himself as he left the tower on his motorcycle.

Beast Boy watched the titans leave. He especially watched Robin leave looking like the perfect hero he was. Beast Boy snorted at the fading Robin.” Why can’t I hate him?” Beast Boy asked his reflection. Beast Boy knew he couldn’t live with out Robin, the problem was he couldn’t live being his toy either. Beast Boy cried clutching his left hand and the ring his beloved gave him as he watched the rain out side his window. Beast boy had stayed behind for a reason. He was going to put a stop to his suffering one way or another even if it killed him. Beast Boy knew he couldn’t compete with perfection, and sooner or later Robin would get tired of Beast Boy and continue his perfect life with the perfect girlfriend. But Beast Boy could never live with out Robin. Not after he had had him, and he didn’t want to live as a human toy anymore. And since he couldn’t live the life of Robin’s toy and he couldn’t live with out him the only logical thing to do was to not live at all. The only question left was how to do it. What was the perfect way to kill your self? Beast Boy laughed at his choice of thought, and said the words out loud for no one but himself to hear.

“The Perfect suicide”
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