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Three Conversations That Tim And Kon Never Had	By : Amarin Category: DC Verse Comics > Teen Titans Views: 1374 -:- Recommendations : 0 -:- Currently Reading : 0
Disclaimer: I do not own Teen Titans, nor any of the characters from it. I do not make any money from the writing of this story.

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I Place My Trust In You

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DISCLAIMER: The characters depicted in this story do not belong to me.

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Rating: PG

Pairing: Tim/Kon

Summary: Tim talks to someone about Kon.

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He thinks I don’t trust him. But I do.

How can I not? He always tries to do the right thing.

What he thinks is the right thing, the right thing for everyone else, even when it’s the completely wrong thing for him.

I know he feels responsible for…what happened. Even though he isn’t. That’s Clark’s influence right there; accepting responsibility for his actions, even if he was under someone else’s control. Placing the blame upon himself, even when it wasn’t his fault. He thinks he should have been able to stop himself, never mind that it would have been impossible.

And he won’t accept our forgiveness. He won’t accept my forgiveness. And maybe you’d say that I forgave him too easily – you might even be right – but, what he did to me…to all of us…is nothing compared to the beating he’s giving himself.

My arm’s already healed, but Kon’s broken heart is going to take longer to mend.

I…can understand that. I think about all the times I hurt the people I care about, intentionally or not, with my lies. My mother, my father, Dana…you. And now I’ll never get the chance to say the things to them that I should have.

You’d say it’s never too late. And maybe…maybe you’re right. Maybe I can still make things right. It’s just…it was so easy to keep…wallowing…in my grief. So easy to just not feel anything but the pain.

And then Kon… And it was a completely different kind of pain, and one I didn’t know how to deal with, because you can’t mourn for someone who’s still alive, right? I just ended up mourning for our friendship, until I realized that it would only die if I let it.

I remember when you said that to me, that first night – that only night – I ever saw you as Robin. You didn’t let me go, and I couldn’t do any less for you.

He didn’t allow me to let myself go, and I couldn’t do any less for him.

He’s always been there for me. Even when he was so angry with me over those protocols, even when he acted like he didn’t trust me…I could tell that he did. That if I needed him, anytime, anywhere, he’d be there. And that’s why I trust him. But he thinks he doesn’t deserve it.

I know he does. Just like you deserved to live, and my dad deserved to not get killed because of me, and…and…

We all deserve things we never got. But Kon’s still here, and so am I, and maybe I can show him…

I know you didn’t really like him. But you didn’t know him. It wasn’t that he was mad that you were Robin – he was mad that I wasn’t. Because I was his best friend, and if I wasn’t Robin, then I wasn’t one of the Teen Titans. If I wasn’t one of the Teen Titans, then he wouldn’t be able to see me on the weekends. And you know how Batman feels about metas in Gotham; if it wasn’t for the weekends, we’d pretty much never see each other.

It wasn’t you he was angry at; he was just taking out his anger on the only person in a Robin suit he could find. Sounds familiar, huh? Kon is…a lot like you. And without you, I need him more than ever. Not that I didn’t before, I just… It’s like that song you loved so much; I couldn’t appreciate the…the l-love you gave me until I’d lost it. I didn’t really know what I’d had in you until I had to say…goodbye.

And that makes me want to hold on tight to what – to who – I have left even more. I don’t…I don’t want to have to say goodbye to anyone else.

And it isn’t even really that you’re gone and he’s still here. It’s just… He was always there for me. Ever since the beginning, back before we were Young Justice, before I met you, or Cass. We were friends. And he saw me, the real me.

He was always more than Superboy to me, even before he got the name Kon-El. And even when the only name he knew me by was Robin, he still saw me, Tim Drake. Even when I wasn’t sure that Tim Drake wasn’t as much of a mask as Bruce Wayne.

I know I didn’t let you see much more than Robin in the beginning, and I’m sorry for that, and the problems it caused. But back then, even I wasn’t sure there was more to me than the mask. You…you always were. You and Kon.

Funny, isn’t it? That the living embodiment of Pinocchio made me feel like a real boy. That our very own literal Peter Pan made me feel like I hadn’t missed out on all of my childhood.

You made me feel like that, sometimes. But you were so much stronger than me. I envied that about you. You didn’t need me like he does. Kon…Kon needs that from me, too. Just as much as I need that from him.

It’s…so difficult to move on. I know I have to – I promised you I wouldn’t turn into Bruce, didn’t I? And I don’t think he’s ever finished mourning. For…anyone.

Including you.

I know you think he…well, I don’t know exactly what you thought. What you were thinking when… But you were Robin, and though he’s terrible at showing it, at saying it…he cares about all of us.

I cared about you more than he did, though. I miss you more than he does, too. I…I think I always will. But I made you a promise, and a promise made is a promise kept.

To me.

Tim stared through tear-filled eyes at the marble angel in front of him, smiling half-heartedly. “Thanks for listening, Steph,” he murmured, blinking the tears from his eyes. Stars shone down on the dark Gotham night, the full moon illuminating the old oak trees and rolling hills of the ancient cemetery. A warm wind stole inside his uniform, winding around him and warming him from the inside out. Tim let out a shuddering breath as his smile grew more real. “I’m glad I can still talk to you.”
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Three Conversations That Tim And Kon Never Had